I don’t know where they are. The phone goes unanswered. The silence stretches. And I am left standing in the space between not knowing and imagining the worst.
I am tired of playing God with a situation that belongs to God. Help me stop trying to control what I was never meant to carry.
I love them. And I cannot save them. I have tried with everything I know. And what I know is not enough.
The What I Carry Collection
What I Pray When I Cannot Save You
Prayers for loving someone through addiction
Coming SoonYou love someone who is hurting themselves. You cannot stop it. And staying feels as impossible as leaving. Addiction does not ask permission. It takes someone you love and replaces them with someone you barely recognize. And it leaves you standing on the outside — watching, waiting, praying, and wondering if anything you do will ever be enough.
What I Pray When I Cannot Save You was written for the one who loves someone they cannot save. It was written for the fear that never leaves, the boundaries that break your heart, the anger you are ashamed of, the grief that begins before death, and the love that refuses to let go even when letting go might be the wisest thing to do.
This book does not offer steps to fix them. It does not promise recovery. It offers honest prayer, quiet faith, and words for the places where love runs out and God begins. It was written because no one should have to pray these prayers alone.