This marriage is not over. But parts of it feel gone. The ease. The laughter. The way we used to turn toward each other instead of past each other. There is no category for marriages that survive but ache.
He did something kind today and I almost didn’t see it. Not because it was hidden. But because I have been so braced for disappointment that kindness surprised me.
I have been fighting for this marriage. Not with anger. With effort. With prayer.
The What I Carry Collection
What I Pray When Marriage Is Hard
Prayers for the woman still standing in her marriage
Coming SoonYou are still married. You are still hurting. And nobody knows how heavy both of those are at the same time. This is a book about staying. Not because staying is always simple, but because the woman who stays deserves honest words for what she carries.
What I Pray When Marriage Is Hard was written for the loneliness that lives inside a marriage that looks fine from the outside, for the grief of watching love change shape, for the anger she is ashamed of, for the silence between two people who used to have something to say, and for the quiet strength it takes to keep choosing this one more day.
This book was written with love for the marriage, for the man in it, and for the God who holds them both. It does not tell you what to do. It does not pretend that staying is painless or that faith makes everything easy. It sits with you in the hard places and gives you words to bring to God when your own words have run out.